From Here to Nowhere

For the past couple of days, I noticed that I find it extremely difficult to get out of bed in the morning.  When I try to get up, it feels like I’m dragging a ton of bricks uphill.    My spirit just feels so heavy.

I don’t know exactly who or what to blame for this apparent lethargy.  I feel I need to get myself one of those magnetic bracelets to pump up my energy.  Some serious positive energy attraction is in order here.

In a previous post, I said that I was going to embark on a major perspective overhaul.  I was going to try to change how I see life.  I vowed to take baby steps towards having a more optimistic perception of things and people around me.

Now I find myself grappling for answers… I’m fumbling around for those baby steps to take.

Happiness is a choice- friends keep telling me that.  It’s just hard to see the light when all that surrounds me seems to be dark shadows.

That’s what this is: a struggle.  It’s a struggle to stay afloat, to heed advice.  It’s struggling to enforce discipline on myself to finally bask in the glow of unabashed joy.

Quo vadis?

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I am a single working mom, trying to raise my kid the best way I know how. Join me as I navigate my way through the jungle that is Single Mom-hood, armed with rose-colored glasses and strength of spirit. As pepper adds spice to food, so does my daughter add spice to my life. She makes life no less than…PEPPERRIFIC!

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  1. Oh! I thought the magnetic bracelet would help you fall asleep easier. It’s the other way around pala! I learned something new ; )


  2. I received a magnetic bracelet for Christmas from our neighbor. It is very lovely and can’t resist wearing it from time to time. Maybe it could be psychological but i do feel fine and happier wearing it =)

  3. Peps sometimes I think life is down, is melancholic and no matter how much we try and cheer ourselves up it doesn’t work because unabashed joy isn’t on the scene, it’s not it’s time, it’s at another party. I am not going to say things happen for a reason (i hat that phrase) but sometimes things just aren’t all hunky dory. It’s not easy to sit with but it does pass. You may not feel euphoric but you feel better, lighter, balanced. I’ve been clinging to feeling balanced since i returned from holidays. Last year was the worst year of my life – ever. I don’t ever want to go back to the space i was in but i feel my mind sometimes taking me there. One thing i do know is that there is no way that i could have prevented those things from happening that made my life so awful (three specific doozies) and i just had to ride them out. Now though, to hang on to the balance and some peace of mind i make sure that i try not to dwell on the rough stuff, take my mind off it and concentrate on the one step at a time, here and now. It’s not easy but it does make my life a little easier. Much love to you sister (oh, groovy bracelets too) x

    • Thanks, Kim. I also hate that “things happen for a reason” crap. People just don’t know what they’re saying, sometimes. Maybe I should give those groovy bracelets a try :)

  4. Mich of Mich Eats and Shops says

    I find myself struggling to get out of bed too. Mostly because I am no longer inspired by my job. I miss being excited about waking up to go to work. I hope you get your mojo back too! :)

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