These past couple of months, I feel I have been stuck in a dating coma of sorts. I was under the impression that I was taking a proactive role in dating by signing up for this online dating site and going out with a handful of men every week or so. But as it turns out, my romantic life is far from flourishing. My chances at finding true love are as imaginary as an upcoming Mayweather-Pacquiao match.
I feel that I’m simply going through the motions of dating. I chat with men online, and then meet them in person. We go through the entire getting-to-know-you conversation, and then nothing results from it. It is tiring, I have to admit. The whole ritual has become taxing on my emotions.
It’s not that I’m in a mad rush to have a partner for life. I just want to connect with someone, but I don’t see any sparks flying off in every direction. I don’t feel the giddiness of a schoolgirl on prom night. However good the men look on paper, things don’t look so promising in real life.
My boss keeps telling me to stop holding up that “pick me” sign on my forehead. Dates are not job interviews where you have to impress. They’re supposed to be fun, and if anything, I’m the one who does the choosing.
A paradigm shift is in order, I guess. Instead of using a shotgun approach when it comes to dating, I’ll go and join meetup groups where I could spend time with people who enjoy doing the same things I do. That’s going to be a more worthwhile use of my time.
The alarm has gone off. It’s time for me to finally wake up.