The WAHM Ambition: Could I? Should I?

I have quite mastered it: the art of staring blankly into space.  For quite some time now, I find myself constantly lost in thought, fixing my gaze on a random object while I’m in the office- with anyone hardly noticing.

Obviously, I’m unhappy at work.  But it’s not because of my boss, as she is heaven sent.  It’s the work itself.  I’ve been slaving away for the longest time, but apparently, any dreams of career advancement will have to fly out the window.  In this company, the position I presently hold is the highest possible position they can give me (and to think I’m a licensed professional!).

I’m stuck in a no-brainer job.

So, my thoughts inadvertently teeter towards those of becoming a WAHM, or work-at-home mom (can also mean write-at-home mom, if you want).  I can almost imagine the sheer bliss of working in my pajamas.  I wouldn’t have to get up early each day, and beg for the extra five minutes in bed.  I will be given the privilege to do something I love and get paid for it.  It won’t feel like work at all.

More than the mediocrity of my job right now, the reason I want to be a WAHM is that I want to spend more time with my daughter on weekdays, as she spends weekends with her dad.

Before I succumb to the lure of WAHM-hood though, I have to admit that there are some trade-offs.  The pay- I think- won’t be as good if I work from home, and I’ll lose the other benefits I enjoy from my current job.

If I compare myself with other WAHMs I know, they’re better off, since their husbands work as well.  I, on the other hand, am a single mom living on a single income.  Money, it seems, should be my top priority.

Does that mean I have to put aside my own happiness? Can’t I work and do something I love at the same time?

Time is gnawing at my youth… I have very limited options, at this point…

Maybe I’ll just find myself a rich guy to marry?