The Unofficial Breakup

When my 7-year old daughter grows up, I have dreams of her becoming a doctor or a renowned guitar player.  But because of the incredible mind-reading skill she oh so effortlessly displayed just last night, I do believe she could also make it big as a psychic.

Right after we finished dancing and sweating to Wannabe by the Spice Girls, she sat me down and looked me squarely in the eye.  “Mama, are you ok?”, she asked.   She must have sensed a negative vibe from me.  I said, “Right now, I’m not really ok, but I know I will be.”  And then she gave me a tight 20-second hug, and for that brief moment, I was back in my happy place.

I wasn’t in the cheeriest of moods, because I had some shocking news from this guy I have been spending a lot of time with for the past 4 or 5 months.  He and I weren’t actually a couple- not enough reason to change my Facebook status- but we did share happy times together.  I was simply sad, knowing that we can no longer do the things we used to do.

This unofficial breakup tore me apart that night.  The tears involuntarily gushed down my cheeks like Niagara Falls.

I hope he doesn’t read this.  He doesn’t know… he never did know how I felt about him all…this…time…

About Pepper

I am a single working mom, trying to raise my kid the best way I know how. Join me as I navigate my way through the jungle that is Single Mom-hood, armed with rose-colored glasses and strength of spirit. As pepper adds spice to food, so does my daughter add spice to my life. She makes life no less than…PEPPERRIFIC!

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  1. You’re right, kids do pick up our vibes, good or bad. I’m sorry to hear you’re not feeling your happiest right now. And like you said too, the kiddos do have our heartstrings. Glad your daughter loved you up w/a big hug when you needed a piece of happy. :)

  2. Ohhh Pepper, I’m so glad your daughter is such a blessing in your life. I’m more glad that she cares enough to notice your moods. Patience, girl…. Wait on a guy worthy enough to be an influence on her!

    • Thanks so much, Karen. I’m trying to be at peace with the world… teaching myself that the right guy may or may never come.

  3. Awww… hope you’re feeling better now, Pepper.

  4. Awww, Pepper I am so sorry. This is so hard, take some time to reconnect with your daughter. It is so special when your child knows what is wrong before you even say a word and how their special hugs make everything better.

  5. Wow.
    I’m glad you were able to get it off of your chest. No matter the level of commitment, it really sounds like you truly cared for and enjoyed this person. So sorry. I hope it gets better. I believe it will. :-) Thanks for sharing.

    • Thanks Rhonda. You’re right, it doesn’t matter what level of commitment I was at. Still hurts to some degree. Or maybe I’m just fooling myself…maybe I’m really ok about what happened…

  6. So sad but I can always have your 20 seconds hug from your daughter while you heal.

  7. Maybe you can still tell him. I love how sensitive our kids can be towards us. HUG

    • Hi Becky! Long time no hear! Thanks, but I don’t think there’s any reason anymore to tell him. He has just been downgraded to “a**hole” status :)

  8. Kathy Ngo says

    Syemays … halos same situation nga. Mine is an official break up though =( Kaya natin to … kakayanin natin to

  9. I’m sorry things didn’t work out, but I know my girls always somehow know when I need that extra hug.

    Stopping by from VoiceBoks!

  10. I get rid with my carpet sis, my eldest daughter is asthmatic. Though there are carpets that have anti-allergy I still stick to our doctor’s advice… NO MORE CARPETS in the house.

  11. Hope you’re ok now. =(

  12. So much time has passed since the last time I visited your blog again. Reading this, I really hope your much ok now. At one point in my life, I also had the same experience. You’ll get over soon Pepper.

  13. Very sorry to hear that..

    Try to think positive, maybe he’s not the one for you. However, you must be very grateful to have such a wonderful daughter.

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